“Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid, do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.” – Joshua 1:9
In a span of one month, I lost my job in Bahrain, then transferred to a new one in UAE. Barely two weeks after I left, our dearly beloved cat was put to sleep because of lingering illness, now he’s free from pain. Until now my resident visa is still on hold as there are findings on my x-ray that require further tests; yet it may be a way for me to reaffirm the real status of my health. It is causing a grim outlook for a permanent status in the workplace, but then again, it may be saving me for a better one. Since 1st August of last year, I have been made redundant thrice; and thrice I was redirected to new assignments. Why these series of unfortunate events keep happening, only God knows.
Some say it’s unfortunate, I say I’m blessed. From the past year onwards, I continue to struggle. I cringe in fear. I cry in frustration. Why is life so mean to me, I ask sometimes. Yet oftentimes, I realize life is kind in ways that far outweigh what I struggle with; what I fear most, and what I cry about. Why?
These I know.
He never said it would be easy. But He promised He would never leave us. So. I may not see Him with human eyes, but He is alway present in all my medical tests to hold my hand as each needle pierces my veins. He rides with me everyday as I travel for hours to my workplace in the middle of the desert. He cries with me when I think about Storm. He knows when I miss my family, and so He comforts me withthrough the scriptures. He makes me fall asleep whenever I’m exhasuted. He provides what I need, even when there seems to be nothing left.
I know that God is love. I know that this is a imperfect world we live in. I know that in between, a beautiful mess thrives, that’s me. To proclaim God’s perfect love in all the brokenness is to find the the real beauty amidst all the chaos – JESUS 💜
So I thank Him everyday – for the chaos only highlight the glory of God; the twists and turns only enhance the colors of the rainbow of His promises, and the abyss of my distress finds rest only upon the rock-solid foundation of Jesus’ love where I will feel secure and always protected.